This is what you get. Some people see it as wonderful, others see it as awful.
If you see it as wonderful, then when you feel awful, you can imagine that your perception is off and, within your experience of awful, there is actually wonderful.
If you see it as awful, then the moments of joy and happiness are a problem with your perception. If you happen to feel good, you are forgetting, momentarily, that things are basically awful.
If you see it as it, then awful and wonderful don’t matter so much. Awful is some feelings and wonderful is other feelings. It’s wonderfully awful or awfully wonderful.